2011 I Tartu - Tallinn

text and pic by: Liiso
http://liiso.planet.ee/



[kiri sõbrale]

niisiis, nagu sa olid ennustanud, oli reedene rong puupüsti täis. jõudsin viimasel minutil, et veel vaba kohta saada ja seal oligi üks naine, kelle kõrval oli tühi tool. küsisin, kas koht on vaba. naine paistis veidi segaduses, aga lubas mu istuma. hakkasin riideid seljast võtma kui naine omaette nagu kedagi oodates närviliselt pobises: "eks ta peab siis uuesti kooli minema, kui ta lugeda ei oska" ja muud sellises vaimus. siis tegi ta sellise telefonikõne kus küsis kelleltki "kus sa oled?" ja seletas ise siis, millise koha peal mitmendas vagunis ta istub. olin segaduses ning küsisin igaks juhuks üle, kas koht on ikka endiselt vaba. ta ütles: "istuge, istuge," ja siis rohkem enda ette "tema oma viga kui ta numbreid ei tunne ja las seisab siis." ise vahtis ootusärevalt igat sisenejat. paistis pentsik, aga leidsin, et las naine ise vastutab oma otsuste eest.
varsti kostiski minu selja tagant mehehääl: "poiss, see on minu koht!". vaatasin taha, seal oli paks kiilakas ebameeldiva olemisega meesterahavas. naine minu kõrval ütles talle, et see on tüdruk ja see on tüdruku koht. mees oli väga vihane: "sa ei võinud mulle kohta ka hoida või?". mõtlesin, et nad on mõlemad täiesti lollakad. mees pühkis püha viha täis minema ja minu arust seisis tapani vaguni lõpus seina ääres.
siis kostus äkki: "marja!" tulijaid oli kaks - mari prekup ja obu. kuna kõik kohad olid nüüdseks tõesti hõivatud, lõid nad minu kõrvale põrandale laagri püsti ja nõudsid kontrolörilt põrandakoha piletit tudengisoodustusega. "ei, sa ei pea siis juurde maksma, kui sa hiljem istuma saad," vastas kontrolör obu küsimusele.
obu tegeles esimesed 20 minutit sõidust arvuti taga papi kokkuajamisega, mis seisneb firmade rahasüsteemide euroks ümberkorraldamises ning seda läheb praegu kõigil sitaks tarvis. pärast seda tahtis ta meile restoranvagunist õlut tuua. ta naases kilekotitäiega, põhjendades: "see oli nii odav."
kõige põnevam on rongis aga ikkagi alati see, et kui rong on puupüsti täis, siis kuidas kurat need kontrolörid teavad peale peatusi, et millised reisijad on uued? nad alati teavad!
(alustasin seda kirja toopäev, aga lõpetasin seepäev)









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2010 Tartu-Odessa-Tbilisi, Part2 - Tartu-Valka

Text: Me
Photos and other stuff: We


Tartu-Valka


Last-things-to-do which we did were simple. Some time ago I helped a friend to build a gigantic bookshelf, he presented me with this bottle of good Georgian wine, for opening and drinking of which the time was perfect. And we made sign for hitchhiking saying “ODESSA” with nice, beautiful and big letters. Just in case somebody get’s the coolness of that or wants to give us a really long ride.



From left: Him, Her, Me

Done. Ready to go. At those moments, maybe only for those dubious people of my breed, there are always thoughts there, at farewells, headed by the bursting “Why the fuck do you want to leave? Isn’t it nice? Couldn’t you stay a bit longer?” Argonauts, I envy you. I don’t need any Sirens to whisper that to my ears, sun-filled verandah will do just fine. And there is Orpheus with his lyre, singing promise of a enjoyable future happening not here. Split in two, going and staying, for an intense n-time before the first step.
And then suddenly your walking. Going to city centre, changing some money, taking a bus to outskirts. Everything changes. Turning back is a taboo, unthinkable, there is nothing there suddenly, behind. Verandah with sun is suddenly a story, a dream, a dear memory, not a simple place six kilometres away. Only on can you go from here, on, let life happen, let the road cater.
With hitchhiking I am usually the boring pragmatic type proposing to split up, to create couples and solo players in the name of efficiency. Me and Him had even tossed the coin to see who goes with Her. Did we argue over gender equality issues after that? But this time I was voted out. We’ll do it all together! It is more fun like that! Well, that’s true, I say in my head, and admire the amount of enthusiasm present at the beginning of every longer hitchhiking trip.
We were there, by the road near the edge of Tartu – there’s quite nice place for hitchhiking - and kept our thumbs out for the cars in turns, occasionally flashing our ODESSA-sign.
/We had walked some and had a bus and walked some more and one thing became obvious already, acutely – I should have had that late evening around-the-block test walk with my impedimenta-solution.
They had tried to convince me out of this, but without success – I had been intended to have a suitcase with me as a main piece of a luggage. a) I love suitcases (argument easy to refute) b) I had a lot of stuff to carry with me (possible to argue, but hard to denounce) c) I had no big and comfortable backpack, no money to buy one and no will to lend some (possible to argue, except the last and decisive one – no will to lend money. Nowadays, who would condemn?) d) I had to carry a laptop bag + a camera bag + tripod, which actually supported the use of good wheel-solution e) I just couldn’t imagine going to a wedding in Armenia wearing a suit and a huge backpack (theme never used).
So I had found a pair of soviet-era suitcase wheels in a second hand in Tartu. A nice piece, two wheels, about 7 cm in diameter, about 18 apart from each other. Foldable solution, which one could attach to a suitcase with a leather belt. Nice. Camp. Later I got a suitcase itself, brown leatherette with golden (sic!) lining from maybe mid nineties, for about 6.5€ from a second hand in Tallinn. Budget.
A simple 20-minute walk from the House to the centre was enough to assure suspicions. No way! The thing wanted to topple, I had to walk carefully like a ropedancer and the leather belt was so uncomfortable to hold on to that after these 20 minutes I had welts and cuts on my hands. That all looked just miserable. I hoped that we won’t see any acquaintances to whom I should enthusiastically say that “I’m going to hitchhike to Poland!”; we did meet, yes we did. She and He managed to veil their most probably dark thoughts, for which I was thankful as my own auto-blaming process was in full bloom anyway.
While in the bus for outskirts, I managed to engineer a solution including misusing a tripod, which made the suitcase pullable as well as pushable, and thanks to the specific shape of the tripod head, gave the whole process of guiding the suitcase a somewhat joystick’ish feel. Silent cries of joy. And a Tom Sawyer touch to it also.
Cheering a bit too early, though, but we didn’t know that then. Forth member, Comrade Suitcase, we had with us, not the best bloke around but definitely not the most boring one either, a character at least.
She and He? They travelled lightly. Very lightly. /
And actually it was quite late when we reached the roadside. Half past five or six, something like that. Nonsense time for starting. The first ride was short, only a little bit on, to a small settlement. But good, nevertheless – while hitchhiking, moving, however short the jump might be, keeps the spirit up, things happening, thoughts moving. We bought some pies, walked to the other side of this borough and started waiting. Now we saw clearly the consequences of a late start – there simply were no cars. We waited, talked, started to solve issues of some alcohol we had with us.
How many cars we had I cannot remember, I only, although vaguely, remember the last ride in Estonia: a nice and calm middle-aged lady. Remarkable, as it is rare to catch a ride with a female driver, not to mention when you are three. She dropped us at the border post (literally) in the border town Valga-Valka. This is a little twin-town, part of it in Estonia and part of it in Latvia. Now with Schengen the physical border is gone once again. He and She went to get some coffee, I took a leak. In search for a nice quiet place for a small call of nature I turned behind some wall, found an abandoned garage, did my thing (not under the roof, of course) and took a bit different route back to the road. Then I discovered it – I peed in Latvia. Sorry for that, Latvia.
Embraced with a light slightly turning to evening we had our coffees, grogs actually, there at the border stake, said our mental goodbyes to Estonia, picked up our stuff and walked to Latvia.






And on we walked in Latvia. We had to walk through Valka, to the other side. Beginning was jolly. Three travellers we were, walking broadly on the empty streets. Pushing my luggage with this great solution, taking turns. Then the jolliness started having cracks, literally. It was one of the wheels. Rubber tire started slipping off. I adjusted it, walked on. Adjusted it, walked on. Adjusted it, walked on. Comrade Suitcase was putting up a show again. Now I saw some compassion in His and Her eyes, dark thoughts pushed aside, maybe, by my now obvious and profound remorse.
Crack-crack, and suddenly there was only a hub left of that sad little fuck of a wheel. Yes, the suitcase had built-in wheels also, in the style of nineties – four of them, front ones turning - and even a special leather handle with a bow for pulling. I had spent some four hours trying to repair two of those wheels initially broken (6,5€), but that didn’t make them any bigger or appropriate for asphalt. Four small rubberrollies, airport floor type of dudes. We tried, nevertheless. It took about half of a kilometre for one of those dudes to loose it, loose it’s rubber around the hub that is. That suitcase was not pullable nor pushable any more. Nothing else left that good old “carry me” and the weight and the malaise. We moved on, slowly, and sad it looked, and because of me, and no good it made me feel. I used my Egyptian headscarf to make a bowknot through handle to lift some of the weight on my shoulder, but not too much help found there either.
I felt like little piece of worthless shit, honestly, when we finally reached the hitchhikeable place by the road, a bit out from Valka. It was getting dark, and also dark-cloudy, and it went well with my mood. Cars? No cars. Who leaves a little border city far from everything facing late evening?
My thoughts were stray. Scattered by impedimenta crisis illustrated with straightforward physical effort it took to carry my suitcase. Home was far away, Tbilisi even further. And they didn’t even share a chronotope. Once you’re on the road there’s a mental space created between home and you, it doesn’t ask of actual time or distance. Tbilisi, on the other hand, sported a very real remoteness, imaginable in unknown amount of kilometres and days of journey.
When there was a rare car one of us rose his/hers thumb. I was making another shoulder belt out of leather part remaining from the external wheels, following His proposal to divide the weight between us two. He was watching deep dark clouds closing up with a worried face of a metrologyst who doesn’t have an umbrella. Drops there were soon. She went for scouting. On one side of the road, opposite from us, there were some private houses behind a hedge, on the other side, our side of the road, there was hedge also, high and thick, behind of which seemingly fields. I walked to the bus stop some thirty meters away, for a dustbin: I wanted to get rid of those remaining pieces of wheels. With every step I felt the lightness of walking unloaded, the pleasure I had denied for myself for that trip, groundedly but so what? And sadly, unwanted outcome – denied to some extent for Him also, who he offered his help.
She had news when she came back. She had found a house. Abandoned, half built robust example of 90ties architecture. We went for a weird shaped small triangular verandah in the corner of the building. A really tiny space, scantily for three of us. Few windows were broken. Not particularly nice hideout in its never finished, dust covered form, but best what we had. And unscrewing some wire didn’t feel like breaking in.
We sat there into the dark. Crouching with our stuff, looking at Latvia getting darker, looking at rain incapable of deciding whether to pour or drizzle, listening songs from mobile phones, sharing some stories, smoking some cigarettes, sipping some snifter. Few times one of us went to the road, and came back again - quiet restlessness and unease of the end of the first day’s journey. We heard from where we were if a car passed by, rare roaring disturbance in the tranquillity of spatter. That day was done.
We changed our dusty little verandah for bare brick and concrete in the house itself. Up on the third floor under the huge round window three wooden pallets made a bed for us. Horror stories were demanded but never told.
Or maybe there was one story, a story in doze, a story about a children camp teacher telling a carefully composed horror story as a bedtime story for the whole camp, studiously composed to please the more demanding group of older youth and colleagues, and to offer a “boo!” moment for smaller ones. And then, when everything is finished, while his having his bedtime secret-cigarette, he hears that one from the two of his own cabins, little girls, they are not sleeping, no, they are crying. Everybody in that little wooden hut. This was his first year. And small girls were somewhat of a mystery. And crying small girls... He rushed at the spot, trying his best. Answering the questions, and telling stories, other stories, nice stories with flower-fairies and teddy-bears. He almost falls asleep himself on that wooden floor of a little forest hut, lullabyed by calm breaths of young sleep.
A story at the transition of realities, told, thought or third. Sleep.

2010 Tartu-Odessa-Tbilisi, Part1 - Preface

, tartText: Me
Photos and other stuff: We


Preface

I had almost forgotten about it, the spectacular plan to go to Georgia by land. And I was about to search for plain-tickets. For to fly there and get it done. And then He called, asked when will we go and proposed some dates. Things were suddenly moving. Only for few people I had mentioned the plan, with way too little of reflecting enthusiasm for me to get properly ignited myself. And then He called and She seemingly just needed a bit more of a poking - “let’s go!” or I don’t even know what made the thing happen.
So we scheduled it, getting serious, considering my million-little-things-before-you-go-abroad-for-a-longer-time-for-the-first-time-in-your-life and few bigger ones, headaches, and His not before/not later issues, and She never rose any particular amendment proposals about the when. And then there were many issues, details, possibilities, strategies, even equipment, not to mention price calculations, what had to be thought of and talked about.
Sounds like a pursuit of an adventure? Planning a great cool trip? I won’t speculate about the possibly different motivations we had to go to Georgia by land, taking as many trains as (almost) possible, when I’m not even sure from which side to look at my own Rubik’s cube of reasons. I think we all had something to go away from. Simple watchword, of course, can be put forth: “Accompanying Me to Georgia for a year there as an exchange student.” Usually, people tend to like to have reasons, preferably understandable when presented in one short sentence. Hard to give up, like smoking. Thing is, one doesn’t have to go far east or west or north or south, one doesn’t have to climb a huge hill or dive to the darkness of salty waters to change the perception, to alter ones relationship with what one considers him/herself or the gray of the everyday or whatever existential question needs reconsidering, digesting, freshening or answering. Escapism is easy. One evening you just step out from your house, take a stroll in quiet evening streets and discover that the names you’ve given to places, texts and memories you have covered them with are not there anymore. You feel and see like a guest at your own home city; you walk and look around you like you’d have been born yesterday.
It’s healthy. To go away sometimes. To get freshened. Choose whatever way that pleases. We “took a train” from Estonia to Georgia.
I moved from Tartu to Tallinn, after 8 years of life in this University city. Not that I had somewhere to move, my things are now there at the attic of my mother’s small house. I slept at my childhood playhouse for the weeks I stayed in Tallinn, remarkably exactly I do still fit in there - just few centimetres of free space when I lay down. Nice fresh air, warm memories and small door.
Planning, organizing stuff around and moving, buying, packing, panicking, tie knots, keep the bridges nice and non-flam. Sure feels like the big thing coming up. And it is hard nevertheless, for weak and dubious people like me, to take the first step, to turn my back. But I’ve learned it’s marvellous, the walking after, that is.
We agreed to start from Tartu. Another official slogan for that was “to see Him and Her and little Her, who they will arrive from Italy, and the extended family of the house Me had lived at to say goodbyes”. Sound’s maybe weird, and weird it is, but in this green two-storied wooden tenementary house I had had a home, a real home with around 20 members of the “family” for years. This was a whole important chapter in my life what was about to be closed.
Getting further away from the spot of current life to calm down, relax and say goodbye to really close friends who you wouldn’t see otherwise for way too long was a good intermediate before the start. Why not? She seemed to like the thought of a little pause-place before the uncertainties of the road, and He was fully in to it – He also shares a close relationship with the house and those people living there.
Yes, we had a party. He arrived first, day before me. I got stuck in Tallinn with work, burned my nerves, failed to take a train to Tartu, went for bus instead, and thanked myself for the intermediate idea. I met them incidentally at the bus station of Tartu, Him, Her and little Her it is, and we shared a taxi to the house to find people already waiting for us, arrival made cozy.
Little talks, little drinks, guitar, violins. In the light of daybreak I found myself sleeping on the couch on the verandah I love, covered with kind blanket and wearing a coat, a gift by a friend.
She arrived that morning. She also had got stuck with work and panicked around a bit, and simple oversleeping being behind her arriving with a bus instead of the day’s first train.
Buffering us together in Tartu probably, in the end, saved some nerves for all of us and tuned us in. Intermediate Condition Additional.

2010.09 Jerevan - Tbilisi

Videos by: Madis Katz


Five cigarettes on Armenian railway







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5th cigarette

2010.06 Gus Hristalnõi

video by: Madis Katz

2010.06 Moskva - Izevsk

Text by: Madis Katz

See on nii rahulik. Magav platskaart, mõni jäse vahekäiku ulatumas. Pehme öövalgus. Piisavalt pime, et mitte lasta mul lugeda. Veel kergelt heledama (pimedast vaadates) taeva all paistvad maastiku varjud, tühi koht meie boksi vastas. Natuke nutvad lapsed, kelles väikseimat kussutatakse magama. Tunnen, et võiksin rääkida kõiki sõnatuid keeli, võiksin olla kõigi sõber.
Sellistel õhtutel armastan reisimist.
Kommi tahaks.


Hommikuks oleme kõik paistes nagu pelmeenid. Head und.

2010.05 Balti jaam - Kivimäe

text by: Madis Katz

These trains are electrical. That’s nice. Green and so. And they have those cute places to hang your bicycles. Even if you don’t ride one, you just need to love that.
I’ve been riding them – those electrical trains - all my life. Except past few years; i just live in a another city. “no-electrical trains”-type of a city. No trams either.
I came from that other city. From bus station of the capital I walked to the tram stop, meeting a famous beggar – young woman, fluent in many languages, equipped with medium size wheely-subcase. She asks politely for money to take a bus home, playing pitiful. Different bums in other city do it also. But they are happy with ten times less money. They never get too intrusive; their legends are sometimes absurdish, but the performance is almost always worth a little pay. She? She got her pictures into newspapers. Greedy, girl.
Tram and then train station. Trains and select the correct one. Inside it and a friend. Sat and talked.
She had yellow boot straps. I had green suit. She had flowers on her shirt and a skirt. I had a cap and brown scarf with big hole in it. We talked.
I noted my stop closing up, getting up early, being at the door early.
Train stops, I can see the platform, just there, behind the doors. I stare at it for a second, memories, or mental notes about those signs saying something about some doors staying shut at some levels of platforms. I stare for a long second, Ii take a half step back, have a glance inside the wagon. Some people, she also, are showing me to take another door. I feel I look stupid; I rush through tambour, get to the other side, train is starting it’s move again and doors are shut, there also, anyway. Fuckin’hell! I’ve done it for few times. I mean walked back from Pääsküla because I fell asleep or something. It’s 20 minutes walk (some in green) what I usually don’t mind too much, but on that day I did mind! My great grandaunt got 91, it’s her party, and i’m late! Because i cant get out from the train!
Jumped out in Pääsküla, there was a train on the other side of the platform. Jumped in, joined an old guy on his seats and asked when will the train go – (yes, they do stand and start there sometimes) but he couldn’t understand. I changed the seats, asked a young lady now. She seemingly couldn’t get me either. “What?” she asked - “The train? It’s stopped, right? When does it kind of... go?” – “ehmm.. Instantly..?”.
This guess was kind of good. Train did start moving.
I saw a conductor, explained her my awkward situation, complained about e mess, claimed, that all the doors could be opened. She gave me those tired, “can’t-you-read-you- little-fucker?”-eyes and went along. I was just hoping for a little dialogue, ticket-buy/ohno- notbuy wasn’t the main issue.
I was lucky enough to have the right door to get out.
Few times more now I have had train rides in this city. And yes, now when you tell me, I yes can see the signs, and I yes can hear the machine-girl voice telling me to note which platforms are high, which low and which doors coincide with them. And even a little screen with running text telling to mind all those things, yes I see.
This machine-girl, she just doesn’t have yellow boot straps.

2009 autumn San-Jose - Puerto Viejo

text by: Ann Kuut

Niiskus, niiskus, niiskus...Mu juuksed ei kuiva ära...Ujun läbi õhu...Niiskus...Autorajale sajab kosk, pilved upuvad puulatvadesse...Niiskus...Juuksed ei kuiva, deodorant ka mitte...Punased konnad olla mürgised ja lained suured...Niiskus...Kõrvad on kõrgusest lukus...Elu vihmametsas – vihmapilves – pilves, vihmas, elus...metsas

2009 autumn Forthamilton Parkway

Text by: Ann Kuut

Veidras udus, linna sudus, kus Forthamilton Pway on täis linnulaulu, rööpad, mida ümbritseb suitsev ja kolisev korstende ja metroorataste džungel...Kõik peidetud siia ühte neoonvalguse kärasse, sellese masinakisasse...Mina siin, pisike, selle kõige keskel, astunud välja telepildist...mina siin

2008.04 Tartu-Tõravere

Text by: Ann Kuut

Tere hommikust lilleke! Näen sind täna jälle natuke teise nurga alt...Natuke ilusamana...Hommik on heledam ja tõelisem kui eile...ja rongijaamas on naljakas tunnel...

Istungi rongis...ilma sihtkohata...Millal veel kui mitte praegu, eks ju? „12 toolis“ oli tore lause: „Elu ei saa elada hing taevas, keha maa peal.“ Tõsi jutt! Nii et lasen kehal ja hingel mõlemil rõõmsa rõõsa põrssana mudas solgendada ja püherdada...

Tohoh...Nüüd läheb huvitavaks...Rongi rattad ragisevad...Sihtkoht on selgunud – Teravere või Tõravere vms. Tuleb pärast Nõod, et ma maha ei magaks...

Milline rahu...Ei tilkagi rahutust...Päike põikleb läbi piiskades klaasi ja teeb sõitjaile diskot...Mina olen juba ammugi varvastel ja keerutan ja keerlen...läbi Eestimaa märgunud heinamaade ja mööda kasetohku üles...Tema ja sambla lõhn jäävad veel kauaks mu küünte alla ja seebiga maha ei tulegi...Kobrutavad kükakil hurtsikud, mida küünistavad puud... „Täna näen ma Eestimaad!“ Klopsitud plekki vineeri peal, roostes tünne, kus vihmavees roisknevad lehed...Kooruv värv ja nuuksuv loodus: „Andke mulle tagasi mu rüü...mu ehe...mu kalleim vara...Ära nüli mind...“ Ahh, niisama siristan siin elektriliinil...

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Reference by: Ann Kuut

2009.12 Tallinn - Tartu

Pictures: Madis Katz

2010.02 Tartu - Tallinn

Text by: T. P.


Friday the twelfth – Brave Tallinn


I had had one and a half amongst those shaky days when nothing stays in your hand; falls, fails, goes on undone.
But I fucking wanted to get on that train.
Bought rum, cola; asked for lime juice – they had none. Cigarette tobacco and papers. Took my bag and smiled for some acquaintances in the queue – “For the train trip” I think I said just to say something. They lifed-up, and one told me to be careful, wagging finger at me, or I end up in Kursky Vaksal.
“No worries, I didn’t buy the nail polish,” I replied, happy that I had read that book.
I fixed up first half of a litre Evian baby-bottle mixture before the train. Tasted it; missing of lime was blowing the sacrality; - blow it, laymen! I had to forget I had no lime, no sugar. It was, and tasted more like of those “rum-and-colas” my mother and her friends at some point so much liked; sure things at New Years Eve parties.
No, today it was “Viva la Cuba!” for me. I needed Cuba. Drink just had to motivate.

I hate to rush to get the train.
And I did it again. Few uncertain minutes I had for smoking on the door.
I took this old carriage with gawky seats, but comfortable in their length, amusing in their style.
Happy as relaxed. Train took me away from those falls, fails and undones. Fuckers! Moving train is escapism.
Earphones enwrapped me down to my selected world. Sat, zipped from baby-bottle. I was slow with myself and heavily enjoying it. I only tried to catch the eyes of the girl sitting opposite; to play or to startle her (would I have done it?), never did, and then she went off. Jõgeva. It came fast.
I was left alone on three metres of bench in two pieces, now mine.
I had to write a SMS, important to do it on that day. Young thing they are, nevertheless markers of a new protocol. Not too soon, not too late, not at the perfect time either I went for this little polite appeal for creativity, bordered in space with 160 letters. I used my generous synchrony, for inspiration and fill; it did the job.
And a phone call. But this one I really wanted myself. The last injection, the last possibility to add a bit to the fuel gathered, now burning for my Tallinn.
I called. Talked and laughed. Got my charge, but it was the very last moment. Taste of virtuality; my cure was powered up while there, in between, moving from reality to be a plain memory.
I was making my trip at the latest possible time. Cuba Libre! Don’t fail on me now or I am fucked.

My usual style is “dreamers gaze” when alone, at sunbathing, rain-tipped, cloud-caressed, whatever trees and villages, huts and fields passing by.
Shaky-wavy, lit with warm yellow, tipped with modest number of subjects for attention – my carriage was my space ship here and now, no will to look out from the window. Out there was plain nothing, only movement mattered.
I’m lucky for those old-styled carriages are still there. Time has soaked them up; something leaks out and infects passengers with its vibe. It’s different. Strong for those who still have antennas out. These latter ones are clients. Clients of time, not the train company.
It would never feel so pure and understandable to fix another baby-bottle on those “new” and “comfortable” blue seats. Here, just a bit more in the past, it’s not rebellious or original. It’s done too many times. I feel no urge to rebel at the “blue seat compartment”. I’m a visitor, a passenger.
My generation – we are no revolutionaries. We take what’s there, never care for the past or reasons.
Who knows, I might get inspired and one day, when have to, I drink those blue seats brown and bulky, so that everybody can see and remember what trains can be. Yes, grayhoppers, behold! – the world on wheels and tracks!
Not today; music and baby-bottle made the ride short. Distance and time merged in a relaxed escapism; tensed as tuned in for brave Tallinn.
Lights of the approaching nest of a capital were closing in on the train in otherwise snowfrozen darkness behind the windows. I was almost through with my second baby bottle and perfectly immune.

2009.09 Balti jaam - Klooga-Rand - Balti jaam

Text: Ana Cereteli
Pictures: Madis Katz

Last train station smells like sea,
Like dead fish,
Fir trees,
Damp sand,
Rotten sea plants;
Like tobacco two of us just lighted up.
It looks like empty,
Used, polluted, walked, dried,
Abandoned since summer.

I ignore bicycle tracks,
Lady standing frozen, with a dog frozen
Looking at the sea.
I ignore a girl going to dive,
Sign of a naked beach,
Benches inside the round holes of sand surrounded by bushes
All looking like cemetery,
Strange girl in pink-black clothing is walking a dog.
None of it belongs here.

We are at the beach when birds are practicing a flight to south,
Grass is getting yellow,
Sea is rotting its plants,
Bear footsteps are vanishing.

We walk in the forest where a small house of his friend’s is turned into ruins
Making him sad;
And a bush is growing instead of the cottage of two bitter old ladies.
Where we take two kilometers walk to get an ice-cream,
Accidentally find a beautiful green cottage
With an untouched dust in the rooms without curtains,
Eat our apples and ice-creams in the garden of the green cottage,
Leave after seven hours and randomly remember about it.

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